Getting Lost in the Grind

As of lately with school, work, and other pursuits I have noticed that I am approaching burnout and beginning to lose sight of my main goals, to graduate in May and get my animated project off the ground. A few derailments have come my way, being issued a bad check drained my account, expensive traffic tickets, and not to mention issues with keeping up in school. Even in my family we have suffered losses due to cancer complications and it's becoming harder for me to 'keep it together'. It seems I'm always working and for little payment and reward and it makes me feel so guilty because if don't get things done, it may never be done or worse someone or something now feels like I don't care about them. It's alot, and awareness is the first step is solving the problem.

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Maybe I Am Too Nice

    Still recoiling from the lack of cash flow last month, and will be getting a roommate soon. The many roles I have are beginning to take their toll, it seems as though the effort I put in is not being appreciated and yielding little benefit.
     A refocus is needed which means making a few non-priorities understand why they are non-priorities. I work too hard, and too much to be unappreciated, and for that matter to be underpaid or unpaid. I will find and keep that job, that dream job, that will have me and my family successful that will keep me out of debt and help keep my hand out of my parents' pockets and oh yes I will find a great man, who supports and appreciates me and my dreams.
    Clearly, I have to be tougher and not so giving...I'm important too and maybe not being as available would help others to see that.

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Where I've Been

In the crazy pursuit of financial stability and career building , I have managed to find a 2nd job, that I must say is having it's ups and downs...I have always known I needed to be in field that allows me to get to know new people and experience new things, so I knew landing a cocktail waitress position would be a different experience. Getting tired pick-up lines and hearing older men tell me how they are going to take care of me financially if they could get just one little something-something from me is one thing but dealing with the lack of security in my position is by far the worse part. It's a scary experience working 10-12 hour shift at lower than minimum wage and tips worrying everyday if you will be able to keep the job. It's one thing to hear it from fellow employees it's another to hear it from regular customers. That's where I've been in a crazy, alcoholic, high caloric uneasy new job. All ranging from the absolutely crazy and honestly purely neurotic reasons behind ending employment so I think it's best I find a new job better suited to my personality and career goals.
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Switch Up the Flow

In pushing my leadership skills to beyond the background I have learned a thing or two about comfort zones. Comfort zones those mental and emotional boundaries we set that really do more harm than good, they create a fear in us to be greater. When we push through our fears and insecurities we enter our courage zone, that amazingly scary part of living that will make you look at your comfort zone and laugh. Switch up the flow, how long will you be waiting for your moment in the sun? I know I am sick and tired of getting the second fiddle...I work hard and pray everyday for that moment, that beautiful moment when the stars align, the spotlight is on me and I sparkle and shine. Aside from my comfort zone and fears I know there is more out there for me than struggling to make ends meet and being stuck wondering when will my soulmate come into my life and stay. As with everything in life, we have to switch up the flow a little bit, stir the pot and shake in some spice to really get what we want out of it.

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Worthless

I did it, I managed to the make enough money to cover my bills from my below minimum wage job! I fully intend on enjoying myself now that expenses are covered too ( I'm thinking of some concert tickets and a night on the town *smiles ). In all of the 2nd job searching and careful spending, I must admit I began to feel worthless, that I have no desirable qualities in my personality or work ethic that is worth hiring and that really hurts. It didn't help that my love life is currently making me feel the same way, hurt and worthless. Job search wise, I have always done well with interviews and if it progresses I perform very well but as of lately it seems as though the great resume and interview attracts them but the prospect of actually paying the qualified applicant is where they lose interest. Am I not worth the expense? Why did you post a job opening if you were not intending on paying anyone?...Hence the worthless feeling. The guy, I guess I will just have to give up on, I don't know what happened or what I did to make things take this no contact or quality time turn. I don't have any hard feelings for him mostly because the worthlessness also comes with a swirl of confusion. I will get an amazing 2nd job and other sources of income very soon I will not stop searching until I have them.

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Every Reign Has Its Struggles

Well...it's one month in and finding a second job has been difficult. I have applied to many places and expressed my interest in employment to some very well connected people. What sucks the most is having bills to pay with very little income...I am staying positive. I'm sure an opportunity will come along that is tailor made for me. I am currently trying to find new ways of producing income that does not involve my usual babysitting that I have done since middle school. I am a senior in college and a Broadcast Journalism student no less and should have a job and career that highlights my passion for television and film production. As I mentioned in my title "Every Reign Has Its Struggles" and as a young woman building my throne the struggles are expected as they are tests and opportunities for growth, they are just a pain to endure. I set out to find a way to support myself and relieve my parents of being 100% financially responsible for me and I will, they have sacrificed enough for my education and development the least I can do is become an extraordinary Queen of my life.