When it rains it pours...:-(

Since the job loss, my car took a powder as well. Luckily it was a quick fix but it was still a bummer. Even though I've been in a total funk since the job, I actually feel pretty good and hopeful. I may not have any money right now but I know I will come out on top with a fantastically amazing story to tell.

Getting Lost in the Grind

As of lately with school, work, and other pursuits I have noticed that I am approaching burnout and beginning to lose sight of my main goals, to graduate in May and get my animated project off the ground. A few derailments have come my way, being issued a bad check drained my account, expensive traffic tickets, and not to mention issues with keeping up in school. Even in my family we have suffered losses due to cancer complications and it's becoming harder for me to 'keep it together'. It seems I'm always working and for little payment and reward and it makes me feel so guilty because if don't get things done, it may never be done or worse someone or something now feels like I don't care about them. It's alot, and awareness is the first step is solving the problem.

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Sharing Myself

Yes, the finishing school and career starting hustle is always in motion but I am always working on my personal and social life, you know enjoying life and everything with it. I am fortunate to have met and kept some very good friends but I also want to find a love of my own. It's funny my work ethic, my creativity, my personality is very highly revered by men...but often only results in me being there partner on projects, or assigned something because they know I can do it. Just once I would want a date, rather than a random hangout, or group project. Is that asking for too much? I am a just being dramatic? Maybe but I hope to find that "It's not complete without Jasmine right beside me" kinda lover

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Where I've Been

In the crazy pursuit of financial stability and career building , I have managed to find a 2nd job, that I must say is having it's ups and downs...I have always known I needed to be in field that allows me to get to know new people and experience new things, so I knew landing a cocktail waitress position would be a different experience. Getting tired pick-up lines and hearing older men tell me how they are going to take care of me financially if they could get just one little something-something from me is one thing but dealing with the lack of security in my position is by far the worse part. It's a scary experience working 10-12 hour shift at lower than minimum wage and tips worrying everyday if you will be able to keep the job. It's one thing to hear it from fellow employees it's another to hear it from regular customers. That's where I've been in a crazy, alcoholic, high caloric uneasy new job. All ranging from the absolutely crazy and honestly purely neurotic reasons behind ending employment so I think it's best I find a new job better suited to my personality and career goals.
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Switch Up the Flow

In pushing my leadership skills to beyond the background I have learned a thing or two about comfort zones. Comfort zones those mental and emotional boundaries we set that really do more harm than good, they create a fear in us to be greater. When we push through our fears and insecurities we enter our courage zone, that amazingly scary part of living that will make you look at your comfort zone and laugh. Switch up the flow, how long will you be waiting for your moment in the sun? I know I am sick and tired of getting the second fiddle...I work hard and pray everyday for that moment, that beautiful moment when the stars align, the spotlight is on me and I sparkle and shine. Aside from my comfort zone and fears I know there is more out there for me than struggling to make ends meet and being stuck wondering when will my soulmate come into my life and stay. As with everything in life, we have to switch up the flow a little bit, stir the pot and shake in some spice to really get what we want out of it.

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Worthless

I did it, I managed to the make enough money to cover my bills from my below minimum wage job! I fully intend on enjoying myself now that expenses are covered too ( I'm thinking of some concert tickets and a night on the town *smiles ). In all of the 2nd job searching and careful spending, I must admit I began to feel worthless, that I have no desirable qualities in my personality or work ethic that is worth hiring and that really hurts. It didn't help that my love life is currently making me feel the same way, hurt and worthless. Job search wise, I have always done well with interviews and if it progresses I perform very well but as of lately it seems as though the great resume and interview attracts them but the prospect of actually paying the qualified applicant is where they lose interest. Am I not worth the expense? Why did you post a job opening if you were not intending on paying anyone?...Hence the worthless feeling. The guy, I guess I will just have to give up on, I don't know what happened or what I did to make things take this no contact or quality time turn. I don't have any hard feelings for him mostly because the worthlessness also comes with a swirl of confusion. I will get an amazing 2nd job and other sources of income very soon I will not stop searching until I have them.

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Broke but Determined

As the end of the month nears and the need for more income increases, I get a little more hurt by my financial status. I refuse to allow my below minimum wage pay prevent me from being independent and saving my parents' money. It is heart breaking not being able to pay for and do certain things but  I know it is a temporary state, sometime soon I will be a gainfully employed Broadcast Journalism student. A 2nd job will come along and ease my financial stresses and allow me to enjoy my life as well. I could get discouraged by all of the bills that must be paid and the little money I do have, that is easy. Picking myself up and applying and interviewing for new jobs despite of it all is tougher, and in being a Queen I will have to handle the tough stuff to get to all the fun stuff.

The Renewing of Your Mind

As a student I am constantly taking in new information and learning how to apply it to my career, this week I ran into a scripture that was first introduced to me when I was about 13 years old.

 Romans 12:2 (NIV)

 Do not conform to the pattern of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
 Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- his good,
 pleasing, and perfect will.

This scripture was the foundation of my rites of passage into womanhood, at the time it was just a scripture that became a pain in the butt because we all had to memorize and recite it in unison. But I am starting to get the message behind it, as I learn better I must do better and in doing better I am using my renewed mind, my new skills, my God given talents to help others to seek to do the same and growing closer to God.

Religion or the very existence of God is questionable to many but atheist or believer we all have minds and keeping them open is what we need to be successful.

In my accomplishments, I hope that each paid position, friend, colleague, or love help me to maintain an open mind, and allow me to transform my life and actions to accommodate its renewed way of thinking and doing

-#knowthequeen