2014

Well, I made sure my collard greens and black eyed peas were eaten for 2014... Even though the black eyed peas were a tad over cooked (rookie mistake) I still took part in almost every good luck and well wishing ritual to make sure 2014 is 365 days of awesome for me, the last few months have been a doozy but the great moments were there too. I have my visions and resolutions, but most of all I want fun, I'm tired of working and always being called to work... So 2014 Let's paint the town!!

The beginning of an Awesome Journey

Here it is! The first completed chapter of my series... There's still a lot of work to be done but please read and share! Let's get a good buzz going ;-)

http://m.figment.com/books/738353-What-to-do-about-Asana

Maybe I Am Too Nice

    Still recoiling from the lack of cash flow last month, and will be getting a roommate soon. The many roles I have are beginning to take their toll, it seems as though the effort I put in is not being appreciated and yielding little benefit.
     A refocus is needed which means making a few non-priorities understand why they are non-priorities. I work too hard, and too much to be unappreciated, and for that matter to be underpaid or unpaid. I will find and keep that job, that dream job, that will have me and my family successful that will keep me out of debt and help keep my hand out of my parents' pockets and oh yes I will find a great man, who supports and appreciates me and my dreams.
    Clearly, I have to be tougher and not so giving...I'm important too and maybe not being as available would help others to see that.

http://www.Cash4Job.com/?userid=975

Switch Up the Flow

In pushing my leadership skills to beyond the background I have learned a thing or two about comfort zones. Comfort zones those mental and emotional boundaries we set that really do more harm than good, they create a fear in us to be greater. When we push through our fears and insecurities we enter our courage zone, that amazingly scary part of living that will make you look at your comfort zone and laugh. Switch up the flow, how long will you be waiting for your moment in the sun? I know I am sick and tired of getting the second fiddle...I work hard and pray everyday for that moment, that beautiful moment when the stars align, the spotlight is on me and I sparkle and shine. Aside from my comfort zone and fears I know there is more out there for me than struggling to make ends meet and being stuck wondering when will my soulmate come into my life and stay. As with everything in life, we have to switch up the flow a little bit, stir the pot and shake in some spice to really get what we want out of it.

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Worthless

I did it, I managed to the make enough money to cover my bills from my below minimum wage job! I fully intend on enjoying myself now that expenses are covered too ( I'm thinking of some concert tickets and a night on the town *smiles ). In all of the 2nd job searching and careful spending, I must admit I began to feel worthless, that I have no desirable qualities in my personality or work ethic that is worth hiring and that really hurts. It didn't help that my love life is currently making me feel the same way, hurt and worthless. Job search wise, I have always done well with interviews and if it progresses I perform very well but as of lately it seems as though the great resume and interview attracts them but the prospect of actually paying the qualified applicant is where they lose interest. Am I not worth the expense? Why did you post a job opening if you were not intending on paying anyone?...Hence the worthless feeling. The guy, I guess I will just have to give up on, I don't know what happened or what I did to make things take this no contact or quality time turn. I don't have any hard feelings for him mostly because the worthlessness also comes with a swirl of confusion. I will get an amazing 2nd job and other sources of income very soon I will not stop searching until I have them.

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Tear the Roof Off

As I continue my journey into home ownership I have experienced my very first home improvement project. Waking up to rumbles and hammering is quite the wake up call but it was needed, my roof is being replaced. The home I live in is over 40 years old and needed the upgrade but it made me think, that roof was old, outdated, and sadly beginning to seep into the house. It reminds me of closed mindedness how once a person has adapted a particular system of thought they often think that's it...that's the only roof or way of thinking they are going to need. When will those people get a new roof? They have been thinking one way for so long and taught their children that way of thinking, that when a moment of innovation comes their way it is shamed and cast out. I have learned that keeping open mind or in this case getting a new roof is absolutely necessary because I lacked a certain amount of exposure why would I deny that right to others.

Just something to think about...when was the last time you tried something new or explored a new venture?

This Queen Wants A Lot of Fun

I am constantly complimented on how task oriented I am or how my work ethic is amazing, it's great to hear and honestly keeps me going. But lately I have been feeling that my "Get It Done" attitude is unappreciated...that being reliable allows me to be used. I am tired of it, I am tired of tiring myself out being the person chasing after things while others set back and complain about how it is not coming to them. It's unfair...It's my turn! Time for me to have fun and enjoy myself, I work too hard not to, it will be nice to see someone else do all the pushing and sacrificing. Every Queen needs to do work to maintain her Queendom, but in her dedication and diligence she is appreciated, thanked, and even honored for all her doings...is it wrong for me to ask for the same? No one likes to be used let alone unappreciated it seems as though those around me have been spoiled or just have come to expect me to do whatever it is to get things done. That's why this Queen will make sure she has a lot of fun!